What do you expect from God on normal days? On special occasions? At events, conferences, camps?

I had a rather sucky year last year. With the whole, my family and I moving from Malaysia to Adelaide, Australia. 12 years of my life in a country! And all of a sudden there is a massive move. I had many sleepless nights. Many nights full of tears. Missing absolutely everything that could possibly be missed. Being tremendously homesick!

Camp was near and I came by a verse: Luke 11v9-10.
So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

After I read those verses, I told myself, "Kelsey there is no point in crying and doing absolutely nothing! It is about time you get back on your feet and go hungry for God! Get right with Him. This is the camp where I am going to find out if this is really where God wants me to be. If this youth group is where He wants me to serve. For Him to prove to me that He is with me and this is part of His plan!"

Camp arrived and I continued to pray. Continued to expect things from God. Continued to trust in Him and have faith in Him. It was the last night of camp. I was standing at the back during ministry time. Just standing there, asking God to move and to do amazing things in lives. When a friend came and put her hands on me and started praying for me. Then another friend, Andy, comes and prays for me. Then Kathryn. Then Jeremy. There were about 6 or more people around me! (Not bragging here!) There were just too many people! And I am the kind of person who likes to hear what is said. I couldn't! But all of a sudden, as if I were the only one in the room with the people praying for me, everything went quiet and words just came flying out of mouths. Impacting, touching, inspiring words that just sent me to tears! Touching me deeply. Also seeing people my age, seeing my friends pray for me! Touched me oh so much! I just stood there crying and crying and crying.

It was good enough for me! I was touched enough. God had proved Himself a fair bit. I thought He was done with me for that camp. But I was wrong. He had more planned for me.

Worshiping God like I do. Standing at the back singing and all. Realise the four people in front of me. They...were just standing there!! No no..They weren't standing there and worshiping. They were standing there as if they couldn't be bothered and couldn't wait for the service to end! I was so agitated with them after a while. I said in my head, "Man God! They need some breakthroughs man! You gotta do something in their lives! This ain't right.."

So I did my own thing while praying for them. I took a glance at them again and felt God put one of them on my heart. Here I am. Agitated and annoyed at this people. Not knowing who they are! And there is God telling me to pray for this particular person. I was like..Alright God..Whatever you say. Kept praying for 'this person' and the other 3.

While praying I felt as if God was challenging me to go further in my prayer. To see what He was capable of doing. I was a bit hesitant. But went..Oh well..if You ask. I remember very clearly what I said next.
"God..I'm only going to know that You have touched or done something in 'this person' is, if I see this person cry!"

Let me tell you, 'this person' doesn't normally cry! I mean..'This person' is like the cool, good-looking, basketball player person. I felt really mean to the person. Haha.. But I kept praying.. I went, "You can do it to all 4 of them if You want God. But all I ask is this one person."

This particular person, was being prayed for by a whole group of friends. They were all praying and speaking words of encouragement and everything. I was so pumped! Kept telling God to use the friends.

I had almost everything I asked for. God had pretty much proved Himself to me. He had answered my prayers. Touched me bad! But there was this one that wasn't quite done yet. And that was to see this particular person cry. No,I hadn't given up hope. I kept praying and praying. Asking God to breakthrough.

Towards the end of the service, I looked to my right and there was 'this particular person', sitting on a chair, with tears flowing down! This person was crying a lot! Bawling their eyes out!
Immediately I knew, this is where I am meant to be. This is where God wants me to be. And God is definitely with me! He has answered my prayers!

I sat down on the ground and started bawling myself! I was so absolutely touched and shock! I couldn't believe it! It was amazing!

Something I learned from that day on:
Nothing is impossible for God. Expect great things and great things will happen.


*This is absolutely true! Everything here happened. I shared at my youth last night(Friday..it's past 12am). This was pretty much my message but longer.

kels

God is the best person to get married to..

For your "wedding gift", He got you the gift of life..
Your Wedding Ring was "a deeper and closer relationship with the Holy Spirit".
For a House He "gave you the Keys to Heaven"
He got you a MOBILE PHONE! which is Prayer.. to reach His at all times.

Got it off a friend's site.

kels

All of a sudden everything seemed so empty. It all doesn't seem worth it. The feeling of being depressed, unhappy, annoyed, tired of everything, lonely, sad..But for no exact reason. There was no exact reason on why that feeling was in me.

It might have been the leftover from yesterday. How memories were just flooding my head. Memories of Malaysia, YC, Food, Family and Friends! Remembering what I would be doing on a Sunday. Knowing what all my friends are doing on a Sunday. Causing me to wanna just wanna lie down and cry my heart out. Wanting to punch my younger sister, Misha, because she is back in Malaysia and I am here!

Sometimes I feel that even thinking of my 'old life' in that sense, or my past, is just gonna make me all emotional and moody and all that, that I don't wanna think about it. Sometimes I feel that the closer I get to the people here, the more I adapt to the culture and system here, the more comfortable I get with Adelaide, Australia, the less important Malaysia and the people and memories are. But Malaysia will always always be my home! Nothing will change.. It's just all so and too confusing!!!!!

But..After all that heart ache and so on..I feel so much better now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had lovely cold rock ice-cream!! Ferrero Roche mixed with Cookies and Cream mixed with Mars chocolate bar!

Also.. Danielle told me to go watch this video on Anthony's blog. WOW!! It is so super funny!! It cracked me up so bad man! I looked a bit of an idiot..Sitting down, staring at the screen, laughing SOOOOO hard..But there was no sound coming out!! Haha..That's how hard I was laughing!

Danielle also sent me a bunch of videos that most of you might have seen on Denise's or Danielle's blog. Bimbos versus Ah Lians. I might post them up another time.. But it totally totally cheered me up! I felt extremely better than before! How weird is that?? I am missing my friends back in Malaysia..And I watch videos that include them..And I feel SOOO much better?? It doesn't make sense, but it does at the same time. Sigh... It is all so confusing and frustrating! I don't wanna go through it all.But I suppose I'm just gonna have to live with it hey? Yup..

I'm much better now. And this is the video that started the laughter. Presenting..

" A Day In School"



kels

I miss home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm depressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna go back to K.L!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh...................................................................................

kels

The day I have been trying to postpone has arrived...
My oh so dearest younger brother, Ryan, has officially started his own blog.
Now he would have a more valid reason to use the computer. That would mean less time on my loved computer for me. Sigh...Oh well.. Haha.. He is growing. Haha..=)





kels

For the past week I have been watching movie after movie after movie man! I watched 3 movies in yesterday! 2 in school! Haha..Yup..Full on different types of movies man.. Also 'cause we have David with us..He has been staying with us to send Ryan and Nicci to school because my parents are in Rwanda, Africa for mission trip. Yes I'd post more about that another time.. I have watched.



Catch me if you can!
It was a rather interesting movie. It was quite funny. While I was watching the beginning I was so into it 'cause I thought I haven't watched it before. Then a scene came and I thought to myself, " Hey..This looks familiar. I might have watched it before. " After a while later... " Guys, I have watched this show before!! " Haha..So stupid..But yeah..


Sweet Home Alabama!
Funny thing about this movie also is, I was watching it. So interested in the beginning..Then half way through a familiar scene comes up.. " Guys..I think I have watched this movie too! " Little while later.."Yup, it's confirmed. I have watched it before." Haha..So uncool.. But I really like this movie! It's such a girly movie..OH NO! I'm becoming a girl!!!! Ok..the joke is not funny! But yeah..I LOVEEEE the accent man! So nice!!!


Enough!
You wouldn't believe what happened in with this movie!! At the end, I realised.. I HAVE WATCHED IT BEFORE!! Haha..So so uncool man! But it was cool..Didn't mind it.. Thriller..Action..Drama..Yup..


Goal 1!
Well it was my first time watching Goal. Yes..It was new to me! Haha.. Liked it a lot. The guy was pretty alright looking. Ain't that bad. The movie was good too!


High School Musical!
Wasn't for pleasure. It was for music. I thought it was for pleasure. But if I'm not mistaken I would have to do a review on it. It is a musical. And I would have to answer some questions and all..Yeah..The movie is ok..Not very nice. But it was fine... Laughed at some parts a lot with my class.(second time I watched it..)

Bring It On 3!
This movie is quite funny la! Nicci (my sister) said it's not as good as the first 1. I kinda like this one more than that because the first one was full on cheerleading. Yes I know that's the point. But the 3rd one is also cheerleading but got yo yo style cheerleading. And it has the whole attitude thing all..Nice! It's so funny! I laughed quite a lot.

Shabooya..Sha.. Sha.. Shabooya Roll call.
My name's Leti..'Yeah'
I like to party..'Yeah'
And when I shake it..'Yeah'
The boys go Ai mamia!

Shabooya..Sha..Sha..Shabooya Roll Call..
My name's Camille..'Yeah'
Give you three wishes..'Yeah'
When I shake it..'Yeah'
'Cause I'm delicious!

Shabooya..Sha..Sha..Shabooya Roll Call.
My name's Kirriesha.'Yeah'
Get out of my face..'Yeah'
'Cause when I shake..'Yeah'
It's an earthquake!

Shabooya..Sha..Sha..Shabooya Roll Call.
My name is Britney..'Yeah'
I cheer so strong..'Yeah'
And when I shake it..'Yeah'
I'll bring it on!

Haha..It's so stupid la! It might not be fully correct..I don't remember it ok! What do you think I am? Haha..But it's so funny la! Haiyo..

I think that's all the movies I watched this week. Also plus some series shows that are on at 12 something in the morning that I never heard of before. Obviously! I'm normally asleep at that time!

Went to Harbor Town yesterday night. (Shopping place) Bought a few stuff..Then had Maccas for dinner. Then came home..watched movie. Went to bed at 3 am. Got up at 230pm today. Watched movie. Went for dinner with Judah Cheah and family. And now updating my blog..yup..haha

Tomorrow needs to be a more productive day. It shall be!

Got this off James blog.

The world is no longer how it used to be. Everything is moving so fast. Humans are facing so much pressure, striving for excellence. The human race no longer enjoys a slow, relaxed life in the city. Even Panadol™ has come up with a painkiller, namely Panadol ActivFast to suit the face-paced world.

Much of the cause of all these pressures are due to the 'scared to lose' syndrome that has crept into our minds. Being the thick-skin people, we always want to be better than our neighbours, not wanting to be left behind... These result in the big S word, stress.

Stress. Not something uncommon, neither an alien to us. With the push of the people around us to achieve more, we suffer from stress. Students nowadays face so much stress til they start getting white hair, sometimes pimples and even dandruff ((in jasmine's case) Sorry jasmine..thought it was funny so didn't take it out=)). Some even suffer from emotional breakdowns etc.

We should overcome stress and not let it overcome us. Like Samuel says, consume the crap, but don't let it consume you. Stress can lead to a lot of other symptoms or disorders like depression, mental disorder, suicidal thoughts and many more. It can also lead to drug addiction and alcohol if the person is not educated well on the dangers of cigarettes, drugs and alcohol.

There are many ways to overcome stress. A time-table will help us. It helps us to divide our time properly and help us to focus on what we are to achieve. Having a timetable will help you lead a more systematic life and take one thing at a time.

A good studying habit is vital for us. Many people tend to burn midnight oil before exams (wasting the earth's resources..sigh), but that should not be the way. A good nights rest is very important to us as we are in the growing stage. We should study on a regular basis with breaks in between long study hours. Do not wait for the last minute.

Exercise can reduce stress, according to world-renowned psychologists' reports. Therefore, we should inject a zest of sports into our daily life to help us relax. Eating habits also affects us. As the saying goes, we are what we eat. We should avoid foods that are junk.

Once in a while, we should seek time-out for hobbies, leisure, entertainment and the like. If we keep studying without a break, our mind will not be able to intake everything. Other than that, if we cannot take the stress of life any longer, we should seek help from more experience people, namely teachers and counselors.

We should not look towards drugs to overcome stress. Instead, we should use healthy habits to live a stress-free life. Say no to stress, say no for a better future.

kels

When we broke fast.

Look at the hands after the food. They weren't mine

All those chocolate baby! Not all were for us obviously!

Best chocolate chip cookies ever! It may be home brand..But it rocks!!

Tim Tam baby! Latte flavour..

A nicely bloomed rose in my front yard.

Had casual day at school today. Technically yesterday.. Its 220 am. But yeah..We all don't look so cool there,but I'll out it up anyway. Left to right: Tessa, Katrina, Kelsey, Lakna, Sharlene.

Tessa,Tessa. Haha..Tessa, Katrina, Kelsey, Lakna, Sharlene.

Interesting..i know. Guess which one is mine!!

post more pictures later. Goodnight!!

kels

It's my 100th post!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thinking of what I would post on my special 100th post, I thought of food. But then thought nah..Not cool!

Continued to think, and something brilliant sprang in me. Or like stupid comedy cartoons that I love oh so much would say, like a light bulb came on.

What better way to acknowledge someone, on their special day, on a special post hey?!!

Got this off Kristy's blog.

She draws. Tiny fingers run across the paper jerking at intervals. Her pencil surrenders to every twist and turn. The final markings are imprinted and it is completed. Gushing with excitement, Molly walks, and even attempts running, as quick as her tiny legs can transport her to her brother’s side.

“That’s a weird looking noodle,” he says while poking his finger at her drawing.

“It is not weird, and it is not a noodle,” she replies in defense of her work.

“Then what is it?” he challenges her.




She pauses. Slowly and deliberately, she replies, “It’s a flower.”

“Hah! Please, a flower does not look like that at all. It’s more likely a noodle”, he retorts.

“I say it’s a flower,” affirms the younger now slightly irritated.

Grandpa, witnessing the whole event intervenes before the boy gets to reply. Squatting to Molly’s level and looking her in the eye he enquires, “So Pumpkin, why is it a flower? Why not a noodle?”

She loves it when he does that. She knows now that she has his attention and in all honesty she replies, “Well, simply because I drew it and I say it’s a flower. Others may call it all they want but it will always be a flower.”

“Can’t argue with that can you?” he asks rhetorically. He pauses before proceeding, “So Molly, who created you?”

“God,” was the reply, instant and confident.

“Alright”, he continues, “if so, then... what are you?”

A long silence ensues. Ready to speak she answers, "Give me a second, I’ll go ask Him.”



Only the Creator defines His creation.

Don't you think it's the biggest banana in the world???????? Well, obviously in the picture it doesn't look all that big..But IT WAS! I put it against my arm and found out that it's length was the size of my forearm! (is it called that? from your elbow to your wrist..) And your forearm (if that is what it's called) is how big your foot is. And my foot is a size 8 - 9. GOSH! That banana was massive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was one weird banana man..I was in hysterics the whole recess!! (15 minutes)


So anyway..I was gonna post some pictures about some food I have taken. But something happened and my phone thing is stuffed. Who knows why? But yeah..Just thought I'd do a short update and go to homework!

There is my update... Here I come homework!! Be ready for pictures of food and more interesting things to come! I have this story on what happened on Monday, thinking of whether I should post it now. It would be a post full of words again. A bit boring to read. I have decided..To follow Jesus! I have decided..to follow Jesus! Haha..ok..shut up Kelsey!

Yeah..we have youth tomorrow! It's a combine! No..not only with Solid Central( year 9's-12's) but with Powergen (18 to 20 something year olds), Oxygen (International students) and nextgen (young adults). You know why? You know why? 'Cause Mike Guglimuchi..Don't think I spelled it right. He is from Planet Shakers. Well yes him. He is coming to speak! And it's a big things 'cause, for those who don't already know, he is dying of cancer. Had it since last year. When he first got it the doctors said "6 months". A few months ago the doctors said "6 days". But guess what?? HE IS STILL HERE!!!!!!!!!!!

Instead of being like every other person with cancer, lying down. Not doing any work. He is doing everything! He is still preaching at places. Writing songs. All that gear. Total opposite! I reckon it's gonna be one AWESOME night tomorrow night. CAN'T WAIT BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Turned out this post is not so short and is quite full of words..But anyway..haha..BYE!

kels

Most people know..That my church and I are doing a fast, Daniel Style. We started 3 weeks ago. On Monday, 14th of May 2007. It ends TONIGHT! At NINE PM! I know..Its 154 pm now.Sigh..

See..I think fasting really, really, really, teaches us to appreciate what we have, appreciate what God has given us, and realise how hooked we are on certain things. It's a time where we fast from the food we LOVE and ADORE. Fast from the items or objects or things that play a big part in your life. For example, Television, Phone, Computer, PS2, PSP, and so on.It also teaches us about temptation! Temptation alright! Example..Sitting in the same car as your siblings, who aren't fasting from food, eating MACCAS, when you have only 8 and a half hours more before you can break fast.Yeah!

It's not just fasting. It's prayer and fasting. People tend to do more of the fasting and forget about the praying. Not judging anyone..Maybe just myself. I tend to do that.haha..

Why do we do this? It's for a good cause. We fast and pray for breakthroughs in our lives. We fast and prayer for change in our lives. Fast and pray for miracles. For healing. For friends to experience God like never before. For friends who don't know God. Family members who don't know God. Pray and fast for God to use us as an individual to minister to lives. To sow seeds in lives. Questions to be answered. To get a touch from God. And all those stuff.

Why did I do this? Good question! Haha..I wanted breakthroughs in my life so much. I needed change in my life. I needed GOD back in my life. I was so distant. I felt like I didn't even have a relationship with God anymore. That's how bad it was. And I remember saying at the beginning of the year that this year was going to be different! It wasn't going to be like last year. Where I didn't read my bible. Where I had the worse attitude ever! Where I answered back and all those gear. With the most hurtful things coming out of my mouth,not even realising that it is hurting people. Guess what happened?????

I was exactly like that! Nothing changed. I couldn't even read my bible for more than a week. I stopped. Left it for a few weeks. Started again. Stopped. Came back. Stopped for 2 WHOLE MONTHS! Yeah..I know..NOT COOL!

It was a whole load of other stuff as well. And I REALLY needed to do this fasting and prayer because I was so so so off track with God. My mind was ALWAYS somewhere else.

This fast is and was really hard! Especially for a meat lover! And a chocolate lover! And a ice-cream lover! A junk food lover! And a vegetable HATER!! Haha.. After a while you lose your focus from, God I need You. Come touch my life. I'm hungry for You. To, God, when is this fast going to be over? I'm still hungry for You..But more hungry for food! Haha..Yeah..

Like Sun said, "Counting down the days to the break fast Sunday night."
Something I did oh so much! And still am! It's 240 pm now!

Like Gracie said,
" the things I've done that makes me think, "there's no way God is ever gonna forgive me... no way!"
BUT the Love of Christ is AGAPE.
He is willing and just to forgive.
As far as the east and west, all sin is forgotten.
As deep as the ocean.. that's how much He loves each and every one of us. Hence, there is no reason for me to resent. There's no reason for me to hate others.I should follow God's example. walk the talk."
Exactly right! I got up this week, the last week of our fast, I got up for school saying, " God,let Your light shine through me! I'm gonna smile at people I don't want to smile at. Compliment people I don't exactly like. Ignore comments that ANNOY the heck out of me! Ignore things that annoy me easily. Let Your light shine through me!" And trust me..It was not easy doing that! But I kinda managed.

Like Amanda said, "God reveals Himself to us when we pray, ask and seek Him."
Amen! That's what this is about. Pray to God for our needs. Ask Him for His help. Seek Him for answers!

It's all about God. It shows how hungry you are for Him. How passionate you are for Him. How much you long for Him. How desperate you are for Him. And He does know how much you are struggling. But He wants you to tell Him.

There has been some change in my life over the past 3 weeks. I think. I hope. I pray! Haha.. And I don't want to go back to where I was. And that is a DEFINITE! God won't let me down. As desperate as I am for food.. If there is not change, I'm not ending the fast! But..I don't think I might have to do that. I actually allowed Nicci, my sister, to use my phone while I was fasting from it.

Kelsey: Here is my phone. I have 19 bucks to finish in a day.
Nicci: Are you serious?? This is a first!
Kelsey: I'm a changed woman!!

Haha..proof!! I haven't exactly said anything hurtful and not knowing it. I think! I hope and I pray! Haha..I'm trying to be nicer. And more compassionate. Not a very compassionate person. Kinda got rid of all the bitterness and anger in my life. Stopped holding grudges. Got rid of them too! I'm pretty alright I think. But it's not the end of the journey. I'm still gonna need a bit of work.

6 more hours to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like everyone says, "GOD IS SO ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!"
kels

Does anyone know how to put more fonts in? I need to find out how to.. It's annoying me how little fonts there are in blogspot..I need and want to get more..People reading my site are gonna say the fonts I use are monotonous 'cause I use the same ones over and over again.

See..I'm not sure what to update about. I have something in mind..But I'm not sure I want to. So I will postpone that till next time and update pictures now! People like pictures right?? Well..Even if they don't..They're gonna see it..


I know I know..Poser! It's been rather cold lately..It's winter!









The sky in Autumn.










Yes..Something possessed me that day..
I'm wearing tights/leggings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!










Ryan and I. Mother's Day Dinner.











Yeah..Running out of pictures as you can see..








Isaiah, Danae and Annabelle at bU. There were modeling.









David, Annie and Danae. bU...Yeah..